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Feeling & Fear
It's late in the evening sitting in a corner starin into space
Curled up in a ball lost in my own thoughts
Feelin like the world is jacket laced squeezin me tight
So much on around me so much to bear
Don't know where to turn or if anyone is even there
Voices singin in my head tellin me I'd be better off dead
My mind burned out on what I thought I wanted
A person only a shell, with a crack down the middle
Looking around at the world like a lil kid afraid to grasp
Wonderin where I fit in or if I'm gunna be another number
I am a creature of feeling and fear
I'm so fragile it hurts, so impressionable to see
I'm nothin more than a shell of what once was
My hearts broken and my spirit cracked
A padded cell.. a possible home all because of what I see
This fragile world falling apart before my eyes
Trying to grasp to keep it together
Feel like the next scratch will make me shatter
Wanting to cry but no where to go
Hiding from the world and so afraid to show
I try and try to keep it together
The confusion stirs in my soul and mind
No one to look to for support or growth
The question I ask is in it inside me
It's a frustrating thing to see someone implode
Especially if that someone is but a bullet away
I can't stop trembling from the pain I feel
Can't stop shaking from what's to appear
Is it my own destruction or my own rebirth
Can I handle such a task to remain on this earth
I don't know why I feel the way I do
All I do know is I'm bursting at the seams
Torn and twisted from all around
Singin and writing my only need
I am a creature of feeling and fear
I'm so fragile it hurts, so impressionable to see
I'm nothin more than a shell of what once was
My hearts broken and my spirit somewhat cracked
It's an automatic reaction to a life so complex
Getting a grip but with each step slippin and fallin
Grasping for the handrail only to find shadows
Emerging from all of this with little intact
The scars of heart showing the pain
The tears of blood washin away in the rain
I can feel the emergence of something new
It's a grand vision on the horizon I see A white light at the end of the tunnel
Fighting the fears is the only option
Curled up in a ball lost in my own thoughts
Feelin like the world is jacket laced squeezin me tight
So much on around me so much to bear
Don't know where to turn or if anyone is even there
Voices singin in my head tellin me I'd be better off dead
My mind burned out on what I thought I wanted
A person only a shell, with a crack down the middle
Looking around at the world like a lil kid afraid to grasp
Wonderin where I fit in or if I'm gunna be another number
I am a creature of feeling and fear
I'm so fragile it hurts, so impressionable to see
I'm nothin more than a shell of what once was
My hearts broken and my spirit cracked
A padded cell.. a possible home all because of what I see
This fragile world falling apart before my eyes
Trying to grasp to keep it together
Feel like the next scratch will make me shatter
Wanting to cry but no where to go
Hiding from the world and so afraid to show
I try and try to keep it together
The confusion stirs in my soul and mind
No one to look to for support or growth
The question I ask is in it inside me
It's a frustrating thing to see someone implode
Especially if that someone is but a bullet away
I can't stop trembling from the pain I feel
Can't stop shaking from what's to appear
Is it my own destruction or my own rebirth
Can I handle such a task to remain on this earth
I don't know why I feel the way I do
All I do know is I'm bursting at the seams
Torn and twisted from all around
Singin and writing my only need
I am a creature of feeling and fear
I'm so fragile it hurts, so impressionable to see
I'm nothin more than a shell of what once was
My hearts broken and my spirit somewhat cracked
It's an automatic reaction to a life so complex
Getting a grip but with each step slippin and fallin
Grasping for the handrail only to find shadows
Emerging from all of this with little intact
The scars of heart showing the pain
The tears of blood washin away in the rain
I can feel the emergence of something new
It's a grand vision on the horizon I see A white light at the end of the tunnel
Fighting the fears is the only option
